on not posting

I had some empty drafts for different pieces of media I thought I wanted to talk about (Final Fantasy Tactics: The Ivalice Chronicles and Lux in particular), but I don't think I have anything critical to say about them. The distinction between fan, joy, and criticism is important, I think, and there is space to talk about why I love something, but...it isn't necessary. I don't need to unearth the explanation for me and I'm not interested in persuading someone to feel the same way I do about a piece of media. I think there's also something to say for not "spoiling" something for yourself; my experience with some things is just for me.

Lux, for example, I can yap about on Bluesky or with friends around me; I can gush about it and, as the say, queen out. In contrast, Lil Peep is for me. I don't want to talk about my experience with crybaby. (Ironically, here I am talking about it! You should listen to it, just don't talk to me about it!)

I paused from drafting this for a few days and my confidence about what I'm saying here has wavered. Am I just giving myself an excuse not to write? Why shouldn't I push myself to say something, anything, about something, anything? I really adore Heated Rivalry and I've written about it twice in brief...but I can't bring myself to draft something about a video game I've adored for decades..?

I need want to reinvigorate my relationship to writing.