weeknotes 2

This week was the first week of the quarter, so back to work. It's been a weird mix of boring and tedious as I get all of the scheduling done for the entire quarter.

The weather has been back and forth this week, which has been exhausting me. I get headaches from changes in the barometric pressure. Not really only headaches, but a full on brain fogginess - it's terrible. Hard to track time, pay attention at length, etc. Really annoying. So it's been hard to do much more than work at things as they come. (That's why there's no list of links this week!)

This week my friends and I had a bad miscommunication with another friend: It's our other friend's birthday this week and we were invited to a casual celebration tomorrow. However, my friends and I already had plans with another friend who is visiting the city this weekend for a conference. (These two friends historically hated each other, but a lot of time has passed and we are probably over-sensitive to that.) We all pretty much dropped the ball, forgetting about our first plans (the visiting friend) and double booking ourselves for the birthday celebration. Ultimately, we decided to keep our plans with our visiting friend since 1) we had those plans first and 2) our visiting friend is only in town for a day. The problem is that, because we forget, two of us RSVPed to the birthday. (Our other friend had issues with getting the details, so it was a mess for her from the beginning.) At the end of it, despite some effort I think I put in to get a clear plan, we really didn't discuss anything and it was left to me to finally (a day before, even though we knew of the conflict for maybe just under a week) un-RSVP, which felt terrible. Obviously, this made our birthday friend feel bad, but my other friend got defensive about it? Or to me she sounded defensive. I don't know, it's an odd situation that I shouldn't have really led—it triggered my anxiety badly for a moment and I can't really handle that right now. I need to bring up that I need more communication around plans and changing plans and I can't handle leading communication like that right now, or I need more support with it.